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Friday, September 30
One of my teachers here in Jordan insists that by the end of my stay I’ll be ready to blog in Arabic. I try to imagine an alternate reality where typing in Arabic is actually cathartic and where I actually feel able to express myself without crippling deficiencies. Often I have 150 word essays due in my Arabic class, and although this paragraph is already half way to that benchmark after only a few minutes, 150 Arabic words stare me in the face, filled with mockery, for hours on end. There’s no current of thought. No ebb and flow of emotions and rhythm. Only the daunting reality of each ك and ق and خ which, to my untrained ear, seem frighteningly similar. Each sentence is a reminder that there is no “is” in Arabic. Nouns sometimes feel almost naked as they butt up against one another without so much as the courtesy of a connecting article. Perhaps one day I’ll be nimble enough with this new language to capture the sensations of ephemeral Jordanian moments, but until then I’ll be forced to rely on my English and my camera.
Each day as I meander down University Street or speedwalk between the olive groves, on my way across the Yarmouk campus, I’m struck by some crystalline moment that begs to be remembered. They always catch me unaware, and are really remarkable only for their commonness. They’re the things that, as a photographer, I crave to capture and remember, but both my studies and the prevailing culture dictate that for now some images will only be remembered in words. I wish I could show you all these tiny pieces, the sum total of which equals the profound conundrum which is Irbid, Jordan. You glimpse it in the butterfly flutter of long mascaraed eyelashes on a smitten girl on the university campus. Her round cheeks are accentuated by the wrap of her floral patterned head scarf. She keeps her hands to herself by pressing her arm across her stomach and clutching the strap of her purse as she smiles shyly at the boy who leans back against a car with practiced ease. He wears a tight t-shirt covered with English writing he probably only barely understands and slicks his hair with just too much gel. They are young. They’re flirting under the olive trees, caught somewhere between the past and future. Crowds of students and teachers stream by. Two men shuffle down the street – avoiding the low hanging branches that side swipe you on the sidewalks – in their long white thawbs and red checkered keffiyehs. Across the boulevard a knot of admiring college boys watch as the muscled one in the middle slowly unboxes a pair of newly-acquired Ray Bans. The breeze ruffles the gossamer fabric of the black niqab which covers all but the eyes of a passing woman who might have stepped straight from Jordan’s Bedouin roots. Her physical geometry changes with the breeze as the exaggerated flat-top character of her costume ripples in time with her walk. As her eyes peer out, it’s impossible not to wonder how she sees her world and assesses the stream of high-heeled girls who flow past with tightly concealed hair and even tighter jeans. And what of the minority of Irbid women (though not at all uncommon) who brave the catcalls of countless insecure boys as they stride through life with hair flowing for all to see? You see Jordan in the uniformed and armed police officer prostrating himself in prayer next to his parked police SUV and in the saucy heels and fitted jeans that peak from below the ankle length robe of a conservative woman. It’s in the warm handshake of a store clerk who wants to sell you Turkish shoes, practice his English and assure you that faith is immaterial and that people are merely people – that terrorists are just as aberrant to him as to you. It’s in the old man who offers to walk with you far down the street, just to give you directions to the DHL office.
Nothing is simple here. You breathe complexity in with the sometimes smoky air. I’ll take laundry for example. Best not to even hope to get it done unless you have a whole afternoon free. We technically do have a washing machine in our apartment, but it’s a far different object than what bears that name in the US. It has a hose to be connected to a water source, but there’s no readily apparent water source. This means that the first time we did laundry we had to back the machine up into the bathroom and connect it to the water there. At the recommendation of my good friend Ahmed, I bought two buckets the next time and just filled the machine that way. After the clothes have marinaded and agitated in the soapy water it’s necessary to lift them a few at a time out of the water and put them into the other half of the machine that one friend had the audacity to call a “dryer”. In fact, it is merely the equivalent of the “spin cycle” on a more familiar machine. The clothes require rinsing in buckets and sometimes repeated spinning. While running the spin cycle it’s necessary to constantly monitor and drain the water that’s been spun out of the clothes because otherwise you merely end up blending your bright whites with a swirl of recently expelled water: no drying taking place. Finally when all the steps mentioned have been completed, all the damp clothes are ready. Ready to be spread out over every available surface in our apartment to dry! Thankfully the humidity is quite low here and the clothes usually dry within 24 hours. If I’m really honest, I have to admit that all of this may have been a catalyst to buy new clothes when I went out to the market with my friend. It’s easier (and perhaps cheaper when you account for time) to buy one of the many used shirts at the market than to launder my current ones. Perhaps this is slight hyperbole, but it is an arithmetic worth considering.
Down in old Irbid is the souq or market. You can wind between labyrinthine stalls that sell everything from fresh dates to water valves to used sandals. I could never find the places where I end up if it were not for local friends. They guide me down alleys and under canopies until I arrive at places I’m never sure I could locate again. One thing much stronger in Jordan than in the US is community. Something as simple as shirt shopping needn’t be carried out solo. Instead, you find the shop that’s run by an old friend. When you drop in he might just offer you coffee, and then show you the freshly arrived bag of quality European cast-offs. Together you and the owners will settle in to go through the bag, item by item, until something catches your eye. Then you get to try on the item and present yourself for the review of those running the store and possibly even the other browsing customers. The result is wonderfully relaxed and involves lots of storytelling, chair sitting, and perhaps even a wedding invitation, but it does not happen quickly. Nothing does. I’ve been here a month, and was shockingly gratified to realize that I actually told a story to a friend on a bus last night. My conjugations were horrific and my vocabulary also included a healthy share of hand motions, but I think she understood what had happened by the time I stopped. Being constantly surrounded by Arabic, I’m always reminded of how far I have to go. Still, it’s good to stop in brief moments and remember how far I’ve been able to come in these last weeks. Just like everything here in Jordan it’s slow, and rather difficult, but also surrounded with a great deal of spare but ineffable beauty.
Sunday, September 5
It’s just after 9pm in Jordan. The days here turn hot unusually early, but by the time that the sun is going down, a cool breeze has kicked up and the low humidity makes it marvelously cool and comfortable. That is, if you’re outside. Right now, I’m at the very back computer of an internet café with evenly painted light purple walls. It’s a little warmer in here and fans and a few florescent tube lights on the ceiling add to the ambiance. A speaker up at the front of café is blasting “No Speak Americano”, the tried and true favorite of my International student friends back at home. It’s been a nonstop rotation of American music since I sat down – most of it leaning toward Celine Dion. It’s just me and Jordanian men with their hair slicked back under loads of hair gel here – listening to the most sugary pop of western music, in a purple room and the man across from me is wearing bright pink head phones. This is Jordan. The mixture of machismo with such an all together different sense of how exactly it is defined than one finds in much of the west. It would be impossible to deny and absolute fascination with western culture and fashion exists, but it is all remixed Middle Eastern style. My new student friends and I have been debating whether we would feel we could trust getting our hair cut at an establishment whose sign is labeled “saloon”. One sign reads something like “SalooN Black Hair HaiR CuTs for MaN”.
We really started to get along well – the 16 of us who are studying here in CET’s program at Yarmouk University. We did. And we were getting to know each other. My roommate Sean and I got along famously and even stayed awake until 4am our first night in country talking and talking. I say did, because all meaningful conversation between the lot of us ended at about 10:30 am today. That’s when we signed our language pledges. Until my 27th birthday, I am sworn to the very best of my ability to only speak Arabic to everyone here – including classmates, roommates, staff, teachers, etc. Maybe that’s why I feel like writing – in English. It was a long, challenging day, but already I can see how this new pressure is finally going to make learning a new language make sense to my brain. The necessity is terrifying at times, yet there is no better motivator.
My new home is on the third floor of a medium sized apartment building. I’m told that the views from the building’s roof are fantastic, but unfortunately when I tried to seek them out with my camera, the building manager had already locked all the doors to keep meddling students away. I had to settle from the view out the windows. As with most of the city, my building is built of the lightest blonde brick. After you go under the russet tiles of the entry way you face both the mirrored doors of the permanently frozen elevator and the cement slab stairs that were clearly set by someone who had no level, fell after their creation or both. When you run up them these stairs give you the slightest sense of walking on a sea bourn ship. The front door is equipped with the funny triple locking mechanism so common in international settings. You can only get in or out if you’re able to get the key to do three full revolutions. The funny part of this is the other unique building feature that makes getting into your room almost like the level of a game. The stairwell lights are on a timer. You can hit the switch at the bottom of the stairs. Then you run up to your room and start turning, hoping to beat the light’s off timer. Thankfully there is another switch near the door that does allow for refreshing the light, but only if you hit the right switch. Otherwise you set off the bird chirping sound of the doorbell – hopefully only for your own apartment. There are three bedrooms and two small bathrooms in the apartment. The bathroom doors are of a strange plastic accordion type that creak ever so much when you shove them open and shut.
As much as I feel like a foreign element right now language wise – I know that I’m going to very soon feel at home here. No, I don’t like the fact that people dump their trash everywhere on the street. No, the way that men treat women here far from delights me. My bed and pillow back at home were far more comfortable than the ones that Sean and I found in our apartment (complete with Mini Mouse and “Fishin’ Buddy” teddy bear sheets), but still, it strangely feels like home. There are too many little details to tell here and now, but it just feels so clear that it is where I’m designed to be for the present.
I should do some studying before bed. Real classes start in the morning!